Same As The First

I read something the other day about internet outlets “pivoting to video” again at some point in the near future. The whole concept of “pivot to video” is something that I’ve gone through at least three or four times since I started writing for the internet as a career 20-odd years ago, and it’s something that feels more and more ridiculous each and every time.

I’m not saying that video is ridiculous, please understand; more that, as has been demonstrated over and over again through the earlier attempts to “pivot” — which is to say, publishers deciding to concentrate on video production and output, rather than the written word — audiences for written stories and audiences for video are different audiences, and one can’t easily replace the other. It’s something that you’d think publishers would understand themselves, because think about it; you yourself, dear reader, know that sometimes you want to read something (or, at least, have something written that you can scan through quickly) and sometimes you want to watch something, and that those aren’t the same impulse at all, as an audience member. And yet.

More to the point, making video is so much more labor-intensive and time-consuming than it is to write a story, something that I’ve come to realize working with Ashley and the video folk at Popverse. It’s also an entirely different skill set; I’ve seen what happens when non-filmmakers try to make video thinking how hard can it be with the answer always being harder than you thought. It’s not just setting up a camera and talking. (At one point at Popverse, we were all asked to make a selfie video for something — I can’t even remember what — and it was so uncomfortable and awkward for me, I walked away thinking, thank God I don’t have to do that daily.) The whole idea of “pivoting to video” suggests that it’s an easy off-shoot of creating written stories, as opposed to an entirely different, arguably more difficult and certainly more complicated, discipline altogether.

The fear with all of the attempts to “pivot to video” from publishers is that it’ll mean that writers lose their jobs before publishers come to their senses; the difference now, I worry, is that we might be looking at a reality where writers lose their jobs and publishers don’t come back after, instead looking to AI to fill the gap. If there’s one thing that 20 years of the “pivoting to video” cycle has taught me in my profession, it’s that there’s little that publishers value less than the writers who create the majority of their output.

Curse Sir Walter Raleigh

And then I realized that I’d entirely fucked my sleep cycle.

To be fair, I was aware in the back of my head it was a possibility. During the last weekend of March, I was working a genuinely insane schedule, overseeing and editing livestreams and written posts from two different conventions in two different time zones, both of which were — because of the way the U.S. works and where I live — starting early in the morning. As a result, I was waking up somewhere between 5 and 5:30 every morning and then having to get up pretty immediately because I needed to be at work around 6am. This, after working two other conventions earlier in the month, both of which also had me up earlier than usual. And, it turns out, after all of that, your body just decides that’s the new norm.

Or, at least, my body did.

The last night of the four-day-stretch, my mind was racing through a combination of extended exhaustion and over-exertion; it’s a relatively common state for me when I attend comic conventions, but this was a little different because I hadn’t actually traveled anywhere despite working two shows at once — I was still at home, dealing with all the regular home stuff in addition to the shows. (For example, I stepped away from work in the early evening on the last day, but not to rest: I had to do a grocery run, and then make sure the trash was on the curb for the next morning.) I was lying in bed, thinking to myself, at least I get to sleep in tomorrow. And then it was 4:57am and I was just entirely awake. The day after, I did manage to sleep in… until 5:20-something.

Worst, my first impulse was still to get up and start working. I didn’t, as much as I tried to justify it to myself. (Well, you’re already awake, and you do have a lot to do…) But as I laid in bed, trying and failing to simply wish myself asleep again, I thought to myself that things were, if not easier, then at least more restful when I was younger and my body more elastic as to be able to shrug this kind of thing off more easily.

And Where Does It Hurt?

My therapist has a question she asks regularly: “But where do you feel it?” Despite her profession, she’s not asking about an emotional feeling; it’s not some coded ask where she’s wanting me to explain that I feel it deep in my heart, or the pit of my stomach, or wherever; she’s asking about the physical responses my aging body feels to a stressful situation, or some other form of upset.

I thought about this as I climbed into bed the other night, after another marathon work session that saw me sitting at my desk, staring at multiple computer screens (multiple computers, even) for far too many hours on end. I’ve noticed that, as I get older, more aches are presenting — or, perhaps, I’m simply feeling them more easily and readily. They actually do have different meanings, it seems, or at least present in recurring patterns that fit with specific stressors appearing in my life elsewhere: anxiety holds onto my shoulders as if it’s trying to lift me into the air, while overwork and exhaustion feels like I’ve been hit in my lower back, this dull ache that throb throb throbs when I move slowly at the end of the evening.

It was that throb, the lower back ache that is probably from sitting over a desk for so many hours without exercise, that I could feel as I climbed into bed, this warning sign from my body that I needed to rest and recover at my earliest convenience. Internally, I felt frustrated knowing that I understood what it meant. Not because it meant that the but where do you feel it question was a good and useful one that I’d spent almost five decades of my life not asking myself (and, when it was initially asked, found myself thinking faintly ridiculous), but because I knew when I felt it that I was realistically days away from the kind of break that my body was already asking for.

It’s one thing to know that your body really is sending you messages, another to understand what those messages mean. Sadly, it’s a third thing entirely to be able to act on those messages with the speed that they are probably demanding.

The Movies of March 2026

All things considered, I’m surprised that there’s as many movies on my list for March as there are — especially because, midway through the month, I got so overwhelmed by work that I basically switched to watching ER and The West Wing on HBO Max as noise to try to distract my racing brain, as opposed to actually paying attention to anything, because my head was so busy. Despite that, I got to see three great movies amongst everything else in the last month — hi, Project Hail Mary, Challengers (which I’d somehow avoided before, I think due to the hype? But I loved it!) and Sentimental Value, which really hit me hard. The two Gorillaz documentaries I finished the month with were both in their own ways flawed, but interesting enough to keep my interest. Maybe I’m headed back into documentary mode — after I get out of John Wells-produced procedural drama mode, of course.

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The Comics of March 2026

Somehow, my reading in March didn’t really suffer that much from the fact that I worked four conventions in the month, even though that normally kills the amount of time (and interest) I have in comic-reading. I put that down to the fact that I ended up revisiting a lot of runs from my past and working through them slowly, although there’s no real rhyme nor reason as to what I was choosing to read. Somewhere in the middle of the month, I even went back to the New Universe and Star Brand, a choice that is never a good one. I blame the exhaustion. Anyway. Here are the comics I read in March.

  1. Legends (1986) #2
  2. Deadline Magazine #s 1-23 (Wired World strips only)
  3. Legends (1986) #3
  4. Action (1976) #s 1-4 (Dredger stories only)
  5. Legion of Super-Heroes (2004) #8
  6. The Question (1986) #10
  7. Legends (1986) #4
  8. Legion of Super-Heroes (2004) #s 9-11
  9. Legends (1986) #5
  10. Thunderbolts (2016) #10
  11. Legion of Super-Heroes (2004) #s 12-13
  12. Thunderbolts (2016) #s 11-12
  13. King in Black: Thunderbolts #s 1-3
  14. Devil’s Reign: Villains for Hire #1
  15. Champions (2016) #19
  16. Legion of Super-Heroes (2004) #s 14-15
  17. Iron Man (1968) #94
  18. Fall of the House of X #3
  19. Rise of the Powers of X #3
  20. Fall of the House of X #4
  21. Legends (1986) #6
  22. 2000 AD Progs 2472-2473 (Judge Dredd story only)
  23. Amazing Spider-Man (2025) #23
  24. Avengers (2023) #36
  25. X-Men (2024) #26
  26. X-Men Annual 2026 #1
  27. DC Universe: Rebirth #1
  28. Exploit #1
  29. 2000 AD Progs 2472-2473 (Brink story only)
  30. Silver Age: Justice League of America #1
  31. The Flash Special (1990) #1
  32. The Flash Annual (1987) #4
  33. The Flash (1987) #62
  34. Supergirl & The Legion of Super-Heroes (2004) #16 
  35. Batman/Superman: World’s Finest #5
  36. Batman vs. Robin #1
  37. Rise of the Powers of X #4
  38. X-Men Forever (2023) #s 1-2
  39. Batman vs. Robin #2
  40. Supergirl & The Legion of Super-Heroes (2004) #17
  41. Batman vs. Robin #3
  42. Beware of Doug (Douglas Wolk minicomic)
  43. Batman vs. Robin #4
  44. Marvel Fanfare (1982) #s 16-17
  45. Batman vs. Robin #5
  46. 2000 AD Prog 2474 (Judge Dredd and Brink stories only)
  47. Transformers (2023) #30
  48. Alias: Red Band #1
  49. Black Cat (2025) #8
  50. Venom #255
  51. X-Men United #1
  52. Imperial Guardians #1
  53. Sins of Sinister #1
  54. Storm & the Brotherhood of Mutants #1
  55. Nightcrawlers #1
  56. Immoral X-Men #1
  57. Supergirl & The Legion of Super-Heroes (2004) #s 18-19
  58. Nightcrawlers #2
  59. Immoral X-Men #2
  60. Storm & the Brotherhood of Mutants #2
  61. Immoral X-Men #3
  62. Storm & the Brotherhood of Mutants #3
  63. Nightcrawlers #3
  64. Sins of Sinister: Dominion #1
  65. Supergirl & The Legion of Super-Heroes (2004) #20
  66. Rogue Trooper: You Only Die Twice
  67. Supergirl & The Legion of Super-Heroes (2004) #s 21-24
  68. Immortal X-Men #1
  69. Way of X #1
  70. Superman (2023) #36
  71. Justice League Unlimited (2024) #17
  72. Green Lantern (2023) #s 32-33
  73. Supergirl & The Legion of Super-Heroes (2004) #25
  74. Immortal X-Men #2
  75. Way of X #2
  76. X-Men: Legacy (2012) #1
  77. Immortal X-Men #3
  78. Supergirl & The Legion of Super-Heroes (2004) #26
  79. Way of X #s 3-5
  80. X-Men: The Onslaught Revelation #1
  81. Supergirl & The Legion of Super-Heroes (2004) #27
  82. Immortal X-Men #4
  83. Free Comic Book Day 2022: Avengers/X-Men #1
  84. A.X.E.: Eve of Judgment #1
  85. A.X.E.: Judgment Day #1
  86. Legion of X #1
  87. A.X.E.: Judgment Day #2
  88. Supergirl & The Legion of Super-Heroes (2004) #s 28-31
  89. A.X.E.: Judgment Day #3
  90. A.X.E.: Death to the Mutants #1
  91. Immortal X-Men #5
  92. Mad About DC #1
  93. Batman/Superman: World’s Finest #50
  94. Batman (2025) #8
  95. Bizarro: Year None #1
  96. Legion of Super-Heroes (2019) #1
  97. A.X.E.: Judgment Day #s 4-5
  98. A.X.E.: Death to the Mutants #2
  99. Action Comics #s 1092-1095
  100. Green Lantern Corps (2025) #13
  101. Legion of X #2
  102. Supergirl & The Legion of Super-Heroes (2004) #32
  103. Legion of Super-Heroes (2019) #2
  104. A.X.E.: Avengers #1
  105. Immortal X-Men #6
  106. A.X.E.: Death to the Mutants #3
  107. A.X.E.: X-Men #1
  108. A.X.E.: Starfox #1
  109. Immortal X-Men #7
  110. A.X.E.: Eternals #1
  111. A.X.E.: Judgment Day #6
  112. A.X.E.: Judgment Day Omega #1
  113. Immortal X-Men #s 8-10
  114. Legion of X #3
  115. X-Men: Hellfire Gala (2022) #1
  116. Planet-Size X-Men #1
  117. X-Men Red (2022) #1
  118. Legion of X #4
  119. G.I. Joe (2024) #20
  120. Supergirl & The Legion of Super-Heroes (2004) #s 33-36
  121. 2000 AD Prog 2475 (Judge Dredd and Brink stories only)
  122. The Question (1986) #s 11-12
  123. Legion of X #s 5-6
  124. Immortal X-Men #11
  125. Legion of Super-Heroes (2004) #37
  126. Immortal X-Men #12
  127. X-Men: Before the Fall – The Sinister Four #1
  128. Immortal X-Men #13
  129. X-Men: Hellfire Gala (2023) #1
  130. The Flash (1987) #63
  131. Immortal X-Men #s 14-15
  132. Conan the Barbarian (2023) #17
  133. The Flash (1987) #64
  134. Legion of X #7
  135. Champions (2016) #20
  136. The New 52: Futures End #0
  137. Batman: Eternal #1
  138. Justice League: Generation Lost #1
  139. Legion of Super-Heroes (2019) #3
  140. The New 52: Futures End #1
  141. Justice League United: Futures End #1
  142. Justice League: Futures End #1
  143. Justice League United Annual #1
  144. Immortal X-Men #s 16-17
  145. Batman/Superman: World’s Finest #6
  146. Immortal X-Men #18
  147. Rise of the Powers of X #s 1-4
  148. Legion of Super-Heroes (2019) #4
  149. Captain America (2025) #8
  150. X-Men (2024) #27
  151. Legion of Super-Heroes (2019) #5
  152. Cyclops (2026) #2
  153. The Infernal Hulk #5
  154. The Sentry (2026) #1
  155. The Ultimates (2024) #22
  156. Wade Wilson: Deadpool #2
  157. X-Men Forever (2023) #s 3-4
  158. Rise of the Powers of X #5
  159. X-Men (2021) #35
  160. X-Men: The Wedding Special (2024) #1
  161. Batman/Superman: World’s Finest #s 7-8
  162. Batman/Superman (2019) #s 16-17
  163. Legion of Super-Heroes (2019) #6
  164. Predator (2022) #s 1-2
  165. Batman/Superman: World’s Finest #s 9-11
  166. Nightwing (2016) #78
  167. Dark Crisis: Big Bang #1
  168. The New 52: Futures End #2
  169. Legion of Super-Heroes (2019) #7
  170. Earth 2: Worlds End #1
  171. Legion of Super-Heroes (2019) #8
  172. X-Men: The Trial of Magneto #s 1-2
  173. Predator (2022) #3
  174. The Amazing Spider-Man (2025) #24
  175. Mighty Marvel Holiday Special: Iceman’s Resolutions #1
  176. Marvel Voices: Iceman #1
  177. Moonstar #1
  178. Batman/Superman: World’s Finest #12
  179. Justice League: Generation Lost #2
  180. Lazarus Planet: Alpha #1
  181. Legion of Super-Heroes (2019) #9
  182. Lazarus Planet: Assault on Krypton #1
  183. Lazarus Planet: We Once Were Gods #1
  184. X-Men: The Trial of Magneto #3
  185. Conan the Barbarian (2023) #18
  186. Comics Greatest World: Steel Harbor Week One – Barb Wire #1
  187. Harbinger (2012) #1
  188. X-Men: The Trial of Magneto #4
  189. Star Brand (1986) #2
  190. Batman/Superman: World’s Finest #13
  191. Legion of Super-Heroes (2019) #s 10-11
  192. 2000 AD Prog 2476 (Red Dragon story only)
  193. Batman/Superman: World’s Finest #14
  194. Star Brand (1986) #3
  195. Harbinger (2012) #2
  196. Conan the Barbarian (2023) #19
  197. Comics Greatest World: Steel Harbor Week Two – The Machine #1
  198. Harbinger (2012) #3
  199. Star Brand (1986) #s 4-10
  200. Harbinger (2012) #s 4-5
  201. Legion of Super-Heroes (2019) #12
  202. Future State: Legion of Super-Heroes #1
  203. Batman/Superman: World’s Finest #15
  204. Bloodshot (2012) #1
  205. Conan the Barbarian (2023) #20
  206. X-Men: The Trial of Magneto #5
  207. Resurrection of Magneto #1
  208. X-Men: Deadly Genesis #1
  209. Future State: Legion of Super-Heroes #2
  210. X-Men: Deadly Genesis #2
  211. Resurrection of Magneto #2
  212. The Star Brand (1986) #11
  213. Bloodshot (2012) #2
  214. Conan the Barbarian (2023) #21
  215. The Star Brand (1986) #12
  216. The Pitt (1987)
  217. The Star Brand (1986) #13
  218. X-Men: Deadly Genesis #3
  219. Untold Tales of the New Universe: Star Brand #1
  220. The Star Brand (1986) #s 14-16
  221. Ultimate Endgame #3
  222. Uncanny X-Men (2024) #25
  223. Solo (2005) #1
  224. The Star Brand (1986) #s 17-19 (End of series)
  225. X-Men: Deadly Genesis #4
  226. Bloodshot (2012) #3
  227. Fantastic Four (2025) #9
  228. The Fantastic Four: First Foes #1
  229. Iron Man (2026) #3
  230. Wolverine: Weapons of Armageddon #2
  231. Justice League Annual 2022 #1
  232. Batman/Superman: World’s Finest #s 16-17
  233. Shazam! (2023) #1
  234. Justice League vs. Legion of Super-Heroes #1
  235. Shazam! (2021) #1
  236. Bloodshot (2012) #4
  237. Harbinger (2012) #6
  238. X-Men: Deadly Genesis #5
  239. Batman/Superman: World’s Finest #18
  240. X-Men: Deadly Genesis #6
  241. Uncanny X-Men (1963) #s 475-476
  242. Superman/Spider-Man #1
  243. Harbinger (2012) #7
  244. The Amazing Spider-Man (2025) #25
  245. Knull (2026) #1
  246. New Titans (2023) #34
  247. Green Lantern Corps (2025) #15
  248. Superman Unlimited #12
  249. Action Comics #1097
  250. Lobo (2026) #2
  251. Justice League Unlimited #s 11-12
  252. Super Friends #3
  253. Justice League vs. Legion of Super-Heroes #2
  254. Shazam! (2021) #2
  255. The Brave and the Bold (2007) #1
  256. Legion of X #8
  257. Uncanny X-Men (1963) #477
  258. Harbinger (2012) #8
  259. Conan the Barbarian (2023) #22
  260. Batman/Superman: World’s Finest #19
  261. Action 50th Anniversary Special #1 (Look Out for Lefty story only)
  262. Flash Gordon #0
  263. Super Friends #4
  264. 2000 AD Progs 2476-2477 (Brink story only)
  265. Harbinger (2012) #9
  266. Conan the Barbarian (2023) #23
  267. Silver Book One: Unearthed
  268. Uncanny X-Men (1963) #478
  269. The Brave and the Bold (2007) #2
  270. Batman/Superman: World’s Finest #20
  271. Super Friends #5
  272. The Brave and the Bold (2007) #3
  273. Shazam! (2021) #s 3-4
  274. The New Champion of Shazam! #1
  275. Justice League vs. Legion of Super-Heroes #3
  276. Batman/Superman: World’s Finest #21
  277. War for Earth-3 #1
  278. Harbinger (2012) #10
  279. Conan the Barbarian (2023) #24
  280. The Transformers UK #s 9-21
  281. Super Friends #6
  282. The Transformers UK #s 29-32, 41-44
  283. The New Champion of Shazam! #2
  284. The Transformers UK #s 45-50
  285. The New Champion of Shazam! #s 3-4
  286. Lazarus Planet: Revenge of the Gods #s 1-2
  287. Uncanny X-Men (1963) #479
  288. Batman/Superman: World’s Finest #22
  289. Resurrection of Magneto #s 3-4
  290. Harbinger (2012) #0
  291. Bloodshot (2012) #s 5-6
  292. Lazarus Planet: Revenge of the Gods #s 3-4
  293. Wonder Man (2026) #1
  294. Venom (2025) #256
  295. X-Men (2024) #28
  296. Deadpool: April Pool’s Day #1
  297. Eternals 50th Anniversary Special #1
  298. Captain Marvel: Dark Past #1
  299. Daredevil (2026) #1
  300. Inglorious X-Force #3

The Month That Wasn’t

I knew, before going into it, that March was going to be a very, very strange and probably stressful month this year. I’m far enough into this job now that I know that any time a convention pops up into the schedule, it throws everything around it into disarray, whether or not I’m traveling to the show and doing it in person, or editing other people’s work from afar. The thing was, March didn’t just have one convention — it had three. (Technically, four, but I’ll get to that in a second.)

The first of those conventions was the only one that I attended in person, and was arguably the least disruptive of all of them. After all, I’ve done Emerald City Comic Con on and off for… well, more than a decade, easily, by this point; even though this year’s show was relatively unusual because my work duties shifted further away from actually writing and more towards managing and editing and other things, I still know the lay of the land and the rhythms of that show to not have been thrown entirely by it. (That said, I still had the strange thing where I went to something that’s at least adjacent to a comic show and didn’t actually read any comics; I blame my need for sleep.)

It was after ECCC that things went south. I came back exhausted, both by the show and oddly psychically drained by Spring Forward and the clocks changing, so the entire next week was rough — especially because I basically didn’t have any time off after the show but worked a week as soon as I got home. But that week and the next were also hardcore planning for C2E2, the show in Chicago at the end of March, to the point where in order to hit deadlines for prep I worked a 16-hour day at one point — and that 16-hour work day happened to take place (and, sadly, be genuinely necessary) after I’d failed to sleep more than four hours or so the night before because of a cat barfing right next to me. It was not a fun time.

Yeah, that also happened between ECCC and C2E2: my sleep schedule went to shit, as the change in seasons (and, more importantly, light levels and temperatures) made by all-too-sensitive body forget how to sleep through the night without waking up at multiple times and fail to get comfortable. In the three week period between those two shows, I think I made it through the night without waking up before 5am maybe… twice? It might actually only have been one time. I don’t know what to tell you; I am bad at sleep.

Something else that happened in those three weeks: another convention. MegaCon was another show I wasn’t working in person, but instead editing other people from home — but it did mean that I worked through the weekend again; I actually only got a Saturday and Sunday off once in the entire month of March this year, somewhat surreally, although I did get comped other days to make up for it in a weird, fragmented way.

Oh, and like I said — there was a fourth show in the mix that I was attached to as an editor, but PAX East took place at the same time as C2E2, meaning that I was paying attention to livestreams and notes from writers (and stories from writers, and breaking news from shows) in two separate timezones across the same long weekend stretch.

At one point in the middle of the month, someone pointed out that it was, in fact, literally the middle of the month. How did that happen, we both asked each other. Wasn’t it just February the other day? Now that it’s almost April, I find myself wondering if March even happened in the background of everything else that was going on, or if I just imagined the whole thing.

Shrunken China Heads

It’s been a long time since an album has obsessed me as much as The Mountain, the new Gorillaz release; ironically, probably the last Blur album, The Ballad of Darren, underscoring how oddly important Damon Albarn has been to my musical sense of self as I’ve grown older. What’s perhaps funny is, as much as I’ve enjoyed and followed all his work since… fuck, probably Parklife back in 1994…? I don’t think I’ve seen myself in his work as much as I have in these last couple of albums, in large part because I feel like both of them are attempts to regain past glories that succeed because they’re not simply retreads of what came before.

Don’t get me wrong; both The Mountain and The Ballad of Darren have their moments where Albarn and his various collaborators are definitely speaking the musical languages of their past and feeling very nostalgic as they do so. But that’s not what makes them work as well as they do, for me; instead, it’s the tension that comes from doing that while nonetheless speaking from who they are today, older and no wiser but maybe a lot sadder — there’s a weight to Blur’s “I fucked up/I’m not the first to do it” as someone speaking in their mid-50s that wasn’t there in their earlier work; in the same way, “The hardest thing is to say goodbye to someone you love, that’s the hardest thing” hits me harder at 51, knowing that it’s about grieving a parent and having gone through that myself. (That it’s followed by the line, “Your legacy frightens me/Will I keep it gold?” only deepens that.)

I’m fascinated by the way that Albarn grows old but refuses to just play the hits or else pretend to be himself decades earlier when he was more popular — more than that, that he refuses to do that but still tries to compete, at least in pop music terms. There’s something about how oddly stubborn that is that charms me, as much as the fact that he manages to somehow make good music and still get the respect of critics and fans in the process…?

All of which is to say: I’m still listening to The Mountain and still finding new things to appreciate in it. Not least of which is the Mark E. Smith track, which is exactly as chaotic and messy as it should be, really.