I’m getting distracted by the buzzing my desk lamp makes. It’s not a consistent buzzing, which I think would be easier to ignore; instead, it’s something that comes and goes, seemingly at random. I’ll be working away and then all of a sudden, bzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz. When I work, I tend to do so in silence — I can’t really concentrate on what I’m writing when music’s playing, unless I’m out somewhere (and even then, not entirely) — so it’s a noticeable sound, enough that part of my brain starts thinking wait what is that I don’t like it why is it doing that oh God make it stop over and over again.
The answer, I know, would be to swap the light out for one that doesn’t make any noise — or, perhaps, find out what makes the buzzing in the first place and get it fixed — and yet, I don’t, of course. Instead, I leave it there and get annoyed by it, like I’ve left the solar-powered toy on my shelves (a gift from friends) even though, everytime it gets sunny, it starts click click clicking. Without intending to, I’m accidentally allowing my office to become filled with things that distract me from work. Whether this is a commentary on my level of interest in work or not, of course, remains to be seen. (It probably is.)