Get Lost

The thought occurred to me, as I was walking to the hotel in Seattle the other day, that I might have forgotten what it’s like to actually visit a city, as opposed to work in it.

This isn’t a new thought by any means; I had a similar feeling when I was in San Francisco earlier this summer, my first non-work-related, non-family-related trip in a decade or so, for one thing, and I’ve repeatedly thought as I head into a work trip what it would be like to go somewhere and not have to rush to a hotel and immediately to work. This Seattle situation felt different, however, simply because of how I’d ended up there.

Traditionally, when I’ve arrived in the city, I’ve jumped in a cab from the train station and gone straight to the hotel; this time around, there was such a line for cabs and such a traffic jam surrounding the area, I thought, fuck it, I’ll walk. It’s not that far. In retrospect, this was a bad idea because I didn’t realize (a) it was all uphill, (b) it was about 30 minutes walk, and (c) I really didn’t know the neighborhood as well as I believed. That last part ended up being a plus, however; it meant that I walked through neighborhoods I haven’t seen in Seattle in more than a decade, and remembered that, hey, I actually like this city a bunch.

The problem had become, I realized, that I go to Seattle at least a couple of times each year now, and it’s always for work and it’s always staying in the same hotel in the same area as the convention center, so Seattle had shrunk down to a five block radius and a car ride to and from the train station. It was as if the rest of the city didn’t even exist, with the exception of the pizza place I always make a point of hitting up when I’m there — I love their potato pizza, what can I say? — and the Work Seattle that I’d created was… well, somewhere that was just filled with work and the related stress. I’d started to dislike Seattle because I couldn’t relax there.

The same is true of New York, where I go every October just for New York Comic Con — a city as amazing as New York shrinking to the area between the hotel and the convention center — and San Diego, too, although in my defense, I’ve always thought that San Diego was a pretty shitty city.

The year I spent a bunch of time in the UK between conventions, I gave myself a day to explore London for the first time in close to 20 years without any agenda or destination. It was a lovely day, and one that reminded me why I really do like that place after all. Maybe I need to start adding buffers to go explore aimlessly into every work trip, before my world gets so small I forget that I like it, deep down and after all.

Next Gen

I’ve been thinking about generations more lately, inspired both by Jeff Lester talking about how Generation X is only ever going to have one U.S. President it produced — Barack Obama, because everyone that followed was from the Boomer generation, and once they’re gone, the next wave will likely be Millennials — and reading a piece about Millennials and their lack of cultural footprint in the grand scheme of things.

I remember reading Generation X: Tales for an Accelerated Culture by Douglas Copeland when I was in my first year of art school. At the time, even back then, it felt as if I was catching up on some big cultural touchstone that wasn’t about me and mine, but instead a historical document about That Which Had Come Before. That was back in 1993, when the book was just two years old, but the fact remains: Generation X, as a concept, felt like something that was for people older than me.

I’ve struggled with that in the years since. I get that I’m officially Generation X — I was born in 1974, and according to the internet, Generation X encompasses people born between 1965 and 1980 — but I’ve always secretly believed that I was part of some secret mid-generation that came of age in the mid-1990s and belongs between Gen X and Millennials. Is this because I’m British and Britpop ruined my cultural sensibilities to that heavy a degree? Potentially; Copeland’s Generation X feels such a particularly American book that the entire name feels like it belongs to Americans who listened to Nirvana and Pavement and not gangly, awkward British folk who liked Pulp and Blur and owned a Northern Uproar single or two. (A depressing aside: if there was that secret mid-generation for British folk my age, we’d almost certainly be called the Oasis Generation or something like that. Insert a heavy sigh here.)

I feel as if, despite talk of Gen X and Boomers, it wasn’t until Millennials started having a cultural voice that the idea of generational shift became mainstream — all of which makes it more ironic to see the argument that Millennials are the first generation to lack a cultural identity that’s unique to them, or to create music or literature or art that is wholly original and not a remix of what came before. The piece I was reading about this argued that American Millennials’ most memorable aesthetic should be described as “Lumberjackcore,” which feels at once fitting — the mustaches! The obsession with authenticity as an attainable concept that can be adopted! — and the most cruel put-down.

Generation X, by contrast, gave the world techno and raves and… is that it? Perhaps when you look at everything in this manner, it’s the finest perspective to have to fight off the common wisdom: everyone might think the Boomers were squares who ruined it for everyone else, but they were the hippies and the punks. You don’t get hip-hop if it wasn’t for the Boomers, either. Food for thought, perhaps.

The Movies of August 2025

August proved to be an odd month, moviewise: I started the month exhausted after San Diego Comic-Con and ended it planning for (and then attending!) PAX West, and in between, it was more rewatching — or a lot of television, this past month — than that many new movies this time around.

Of note: I rewatched Avengers: Infinity War and Avengers: Endgame because I was curious how they’d play out years later, and… ehhhh? Infinity War starts far stronger than I remember, but its back half lags so badly, while Endgame is just a slog from start to finish. (And has genuinely terrible pacing issues.) Meanwhile, The Last Showgirl was absolutely fucking beautiful and made me cry, Netflix’s DEVO documentary was enjoyable if weirdly purposefully limited, and, I have to admit, I really did enjoy The Babysitter and its sequel more than I should confess.

Nonetheless, here’s what I watched this last month!

The Comics of August 2025

It’s an odd thing to find myself revisiting comic book runs that didn’t impress me the first time around, only to appreciate them significantly more a decade or so after the fact, but look at what I read throughout August: 2010s Marvel Comics all over, and I found myself having a lot more fun than I expected. Marvel Now, you tell me? Turns out, Marvel Then makes a lot more sense, even if I find myself somewhat exhausted when the big crossovers of the moment kick in.

Also appreciated in August: Howard Chaykin’s Black Kiss — I’m not entirely sure “appreciated” is the appropriate word, even now — and, far less on the fence, Rob Williams and RM Guera’s absolutely fucking wild Judge Dredd collaborations. Hell, I even re-read Grant Morrison and Steve Yeowell’s Zenith Phases 1, 3 and 4. (I didn’t skip Phase 2 intentionally, I simply ended up re-reading 3 and 4 by accident and got sucked in…)

  1. Fear Itself #s 2-3
  2. Defenders (2011) #9
  3. AVX: Consequences #1
  4. Uncanny Avengers (2012) #1
  5. Marvel NOW! Point One #1
  6. AVX: Consequences #2
  7. Defenders (2011) #10
  8. Fear Itself #4
  9. Royals #9
  10. All-New Guardians of the Galaxy #146
  11. History of the Marvel Universe #1
  12. Batman and Robin: Year One #10
  13. Superman Unlimited #4
  14. Batman/Superman: World’s Finest #42
  15. Detective Comics #1100
  16. Justice League Red #1
  17. Defenders (2011) #s 11-12
  18. Royals #10
  19. All-New Guardians of the Galaxy #s 147-150
  20. Fear Itself #s 5-7
  21. Incredible Hulk (2011) #1
  22. Avengers: The Veracity Trap OGN
  23. AVX: Consequences #s 3-4
  24. Iron Man (2012) #s 1-3
  25. Fear Itself #s 7.1-7.3
  26. Infinity (2013) #1
  27. Age of Ultron #1
  28. AVX: Consequences #5
  29. Uncanny Avengers (2012) #2
  30. Age of Ultron #2
  31. Deadline (1989) #23
  32. Age of Ultron #s 3-10, 10.AI
  33. Infinity (2013) #s 2-6
  34. Inhumanity #s 1-2
  35. Infinity Countdown: Adam Warlock #1
  36. Infinity Countdown Prime #1
  37. Infinity Countdown #1
  38. Royals #s 11-12
  39. Inhumans: Judgment Day #1
  40. All-New Venom #9
  41. The Amazing Spider-Man (2025) #7
  42. Captain America (2025) #2
  43. One World Under Doom #6
  44. Uncanny X-Men (2024) #19
  45. Iron Man (2012) #s 4-5
  46. Guardians of the Galaxy (2019) #s 2-6
  47. Iron Man (2012) #6
  48. Guardians of the Galaxy (2019) #s 7-12
  49. Action Comics #s 1088-1089
  50. Titans (2023) #26
  51. Cobra Commander #5
  52. Destro #s 1-2
  53. Transformers UK: Target 2006
  54. Absolute Superman #2
  55. Guardians of the Galaxy (2020) #2
  56. Iron Man (2012) #7
  57. History of the Marvel Universe #2
  58. Defenders: Beyond #1
  59. Loki: Agent of Asgard #1
  60. Iron Man (2012) #8
  61. Loki: Agent of Asgard #2
  62. Iron Man (2012) #9
  63. History of the Marvel Universe #3
  64. Guardians of the Galaxy (2020) #3
  65. The Ultimates (2016) #1
  66. Marvel Super-Heroes: Contest of Champions #1
  67. Absolute Superman #s 2-3
  68. Justice League: The Nail #1
  69. Justice League of America (1960) #1
  70. Loki: Agent of Asgard #3
  71. Iron Man (2012) #10
  72. Judge Dredd: Tunnels eps. 1-7
  73. Captain Planet and the Planeteers #1
  74. Guardians of the Galaxy (2020) #4
  75. Marvel Boy (2000) #s 1-2
  76. Iron Man (2012) #11
  77. Loki: Agent of Asgard #4
  78. The Ultimates (2016) #2
  79. Black Kiss #s 1-3
  80. Marvel Super-Heroes: Contest of Champions #2
  81. The Amazing Spider-Man (1963) #s 222-224
  82. Loki: Agent of Asgard #5
  83. Original Sin #0
  84. Original Sin: Thor & Loki – The Tenth Realm #s 1-3
  85. Black Kiss #s 4-7
  86. Marvel Boy (2000) #3
  87. History of the Marvel Universe #4
  88. Destro #3
  89. Black Kiss #s 8-12
  90. Absolute Superman #5
  91. History of the Marvel Universe #5
  92. Original Sin: Thor & Loki – The Tenth Realm #s 4-5
  93. Loki: Agent of Asgard #s 6-8
  94. Iron Man (2012) #12
  95. Marvel Boy (2000) #4
  96. Judge Dredd: Rend and Tear with Tooth and Claw
  97. Marvel Boy (2000) #5
  98. X-Men (2024) #20
  99. Giant-Size X-Men (2025) #2
  100. History of the Marvel Universe #6
  101. Fantastic Four (2025) #2
  102. Predator vs. the Marvel Universe #1
  103. Loki: Agent of Asgard #9
  104. Marvel Boy (2000) #6
  105. Iron Man (2012) #13
  106. Uncanny X-Men (1963) #s 500-503
  107. Iron Man (2012) #14
  108. Loki: Agent of Asgard #10
  109. The Ultimates (2016) #3
  110. Mighty Avengers (2013) #1
  111. Uncanny X-Men (1963) #s 504-505
  112. DC All In Special #1
  113. Loki: Agent of Asgard #s 11-13
  114. Iron Man (2012) #s 15-16
  115. Mighty Avengers (2013) #2
  116. Guardians of the Galaxy (2013) #0.1
  117. Avengers Assemble (2012) #1
  118. Iron Man (2012) #17
  119. Iron Man: Fatal Frontier Infinity Comic #1
  120. Avengers Assemble (2012) #s 2-3
  121. Black Kiss 2 #1
  122. Uncanny X-Men (1963) #s 506-507
  123. Loki: Agent of Asgard #14
  124. Avengers Assemble (2012) #s 4-5
  125. Iron Man: Fatal Frontier Infinity Comic #2
  126. Loki: Agent of Asgard #s 15-17
  127. Thor (2020) #24 (Loki story only)
  128. Defenders: Beyond #2
  129. Fantastic Four (1961) #319
  130. Avengers Assemble (2012) #s 6-7
  131. Defenders: Beyond #3
  132. Absolute Superman #s 6-7
  133. Avengers Assemble (2012) #8
  134. Guardians of the Galaxy (2013) #1
  135. Absolute Superman #8
  136. Superman (2023) #29
  137. Justice League Unlimited (2024) #10
  138. JSA (2024) #11
  139. Uncanny X-Men (1963) #508
  140. Guardians of the Galaxy (2013) #2
  141. The Last Defenders #1
  142. Guardians of the Galaxy (2013) #s 3-5
  143. Uncanny X-Men (1963) #s 509-510
  144. The Last Defenders #2
  145. Defenders Beyond #4
  146. Mighty Avengers (2013) #3
  147. The Immortal Thor #1
  148. Guardians of the Galaxy (2013) #6
  149. Defenders Beyond #5
  150. Loki (2019) #1
  151. Valkyrie: Jane Foster #s 1-2
  152. Cheetah and Cheshire Rob the Justice League #2
  153. Absolute Green Lantern #6
  154. The Last Defenders #3
  155. Avengers: Ultron Forever #1
  156. The New Avengers: Ultron Forever #1
  157. Uncanny Avengers: Ultron Forever #1
  158. Avengers Assemble (2012) #15
  159. Valkyrie: Jane Foster #3
  160. Mighty Avengers (2013) #4
  161. The Last Defenders #4
  162. Iron Man: Fatal Frontier Infinity Comic #3
  163. The Flash (2023) #s 14-15
  164. Guardians of the Galaxy (2013) #7
  165. The Immortal Thor #2
  166. Mighty Avengers (2013) #5
  167. The Immortal Thor #3
  168. Uncanny X-Men (1963) #511
  169. The Last Defenders #5
  170. Mighty Avengers (2013) #6
  171. The Immortal Iron Fist (2006) #1
  172. Mighty Avengers (2013) #s 7-9
  173. The Last Defenders #6
  174. Vengeance #1
  175. Uncanny X-Men (1963) #s 512-514
  176. Dark Avengers/Uncanny X-Men: Utopia #1
  177. Dark Avengers (2009) #s 7-8
  178. Dark Avengers/Uncanny X-Men: Exodus #1
  179. Dark Reign: X-Men – The List #1
  180. Punisher: War Journal (2006) #1
  181. Uncanny X-Men (1963) #515
  182. Adventure Comics (1938) #210
  183. The Amazing Spider-Man (2025) #10
  184. Black Cat (2025) #1
  185. Imperial #3
  186. Marvel All-on-One: The Thing vs. The Marvel Universe #1
  187. Uncanny X-Men (1963) #s 516-517
  188. The Immortal Iron Fist (2006) #2
  189. The Immortal Thor #4
  190. Guardians of the Galaxy (2013) #8
  191. Iron Man: Fatal Frontier Infinity Comic #4
  192. Mighty Avengers (2013) #10
  193. Uncanny X-Men (1963) #s 518-519
  194. Valkyrie: Jane Foster #4
  195. Uncanny X-Men (1963) #s 520-521
  196. Hawkeye (2012) #s 1-2
  197. Absolute Superman #9
  198. Wonder Woman (2023) #s 22-24
  199. X-Men: Second Coming #1
  200. Uncanny X-Men (1963) #s 522-524
  201. Nightwing (2016) #78
  202. Uncanny X-Men (1963) #525
  203. X-Men: Second Coming #2
  204. Uncanny X-Men: The Heroic Age #1
  205. Iron Man: Fatal Frontier Infinity Comic #s 5-6
  206. Guardians of the Galaxy (2013) #9
  207. Hawkeye (2012) #3
  208. Uncanny X-Men (1963) #526
  209. Mighty Avengers (2013) #11
  210. Guardians of the Galaxy (2013) #10
  211. Alien (2021) #1
  212. New Gods (1971) #1
  213. Justice League Dark (2018) #1
  214. DC Sneak Peak: Justice League United #1
  215. Justice League United #11
  216. Justice League Adventures #1
  217. JLA: Incarnations #1
  218. Nightwing (2016) #79
  219. Uncanny X-Men (1963) #527
  220. Mighty Avengers (2013) #12
  221. JLA: Incarnations #2
  222. New Gods (1971) #2
  223. Absolute Martian Manhunter #s 1-6
  224. The New Gods (2024) #s 1-9
  225. JLA: Incarnations #3
  226. Mighty Avengers (2013) #s 13-14
  227. Uncanny X-Men (1963) #528
  228. The Order (2007) #1
  229. Black Kiss 2 #2
  230. Star Trek: Lower Decks – Warp Your Own Way OGN
  231. Transformers (2023) #23
  232. G.I. Joe (2024) #10
  233. Exquisite Corpses #s 3-4
  234. Black Kiss 2 #s 3-6
  235. The Order (2007) #2
  236. Zenith: Phase One
  237. The Order (2007) #s 3-4
  238. Uncanny X-Men (1963) #529
  239. The Immortal Hulk #s 1-2
  240. Captain America and the Mighty Avengers #s 1-2
  241. The Order (2007) #5
  242. Uncanny X-Men (1963) #s 530-534
  243. The Order (2007) #6
  244. Iron Man: Fatal Frontier Infinity Comic #s 7-8
  245. Guardians of the Galaxy (2013) #s 11-13
  246. Captain America and the Mighty Avengers #3
  247. Iron Man: Fatal Frontier Infinity Comic #s 9-13
  248. Iron Man (2012) #s 18-19
  249. JLA: Incarnations #4
  250. New Gods (1971) #3
  251. Mr. Terrific: Year One #s 1-4
  252. The Immortal Hulk #3
  253. !Gag! (1987) #1
  254. Sinister Romance (1988) #1
  255. Captain America and the Mighty Avengers #4
  256. Iron Man (2012) #20
  257. Uncanny X-Men (1963) #534.1
  258. The Order (2007) #7
  259. Avengers (2023) #29
  260. The Mortal Thor #1
  261. West Coast Avengers (2024) #10
  262. The Order (2007) #8
  263. Uncanny X-Men (1963) #535
  264. Iron Man (2012) #21
  265. Captain America and the Mighty Avengers #5
  266. The Order (2007) #s 9-10
  267. Invincible Iron Man (2008) #1
  268. Uncanny X-Men (1963) #536
  269. Iron Man (2012) #22
  270. Captain America and the Mighty Avengers #6
  271. The Immortal Hulk #4
  272. Hawkeye (2012) #s 4-5
  273. Captain America and the Mighty Avengers #s 6-7
  274. Uncanny X-Men (1963) #537
  275. The Immortal Hulk #5
  276. Iron Man (2012) #23
  277. Invincible Iron Man (2008) #2
  278. Peter Parker, The Spectacular Spider-Man Annual #1
  279. Captain America and the Mighty Avengers #s 8-9
  280. Uncanny X-Men (1963) #538
  281. The Immortal Hulk #s 6-7
  282. Death of the Silver Surfer #3
  283. Fantastic Four Fanfare #4
  284. X-Men (2024) #21
  285. Zenith: Phase Three
  286. Zenith: Phase Four
  287. Bring on the Bad Guys: Abomination #1
  288. Predator: Black, White & Blood #1
  289. Imperial War: Black Panther #1
  290. Imperial War: Planet She-Hulk #1
  291. The Immortal Hulk #8
  292. Uncanny X-Men (1963) #539
  293. Iron Man (2012) #24
  294. Invincible Iron Man (2008) #3
  295. Hawkeye (2012) #6
  296. Contest of Champions (2015) #1
  297. Uncanny X-Men (1963) #540
  298. Invincible Iron Man (2008) #4
  299. Hawkeye (2012) #7
  300. The Immortal Hulk #9
  301. JLA: Incarnations #5
  302. Uncanny X-Men (1963) #541
  303. Invincible Iron Man (2008) #s 5-6
  304. The Immortal Hulk #10
  305. The Immortal Hulk: The Best Defense #1
  306. Namor: The Best Defense #1
  307. Doctor Strange: The Best Defense #1
  308. Silver Surfer: The Best Defense #1
  309. The Defenders: The Best Defense #1
  310. The Immortal Hulk #11
  311. JLA: Incarnations #6
  312. Uncanny X-Men (1963) #s 542-544
  313. Generation Hope #s 1-2
  314. X-Men: Schism #s 1-4
  315. X-Men: Regenesis #1
  316. Uncanny X-Men (2011) #1
  317. Wolverine & the X-Men (2011) #1
  318. The Immortal Hulk #12

A Letter To Me, Rudy

In my defense, I can feel myself fighting the burnout.

I’d become so used to the old rhythms of the year, which peaked in the summer with San Diego Comic-Con and then settled into a dull thud until October saw my next wave of travel for New York Comic Con, and then a slow slide into the holidays; if I was feeling particularly selfish or bold, I might have put my birthday somewhere in between the two there, but still: it was a relatively laidback, relatively still second half of the year. This year, that’s not really the case.

Almost immediately as soon as I was back at my desk after San Diego, it was time to prepare for PAX West, an end-of-August show that I had to manage all the prep for, for multiple people; less than a week after that show, there’s another comic convention to attend here in town. That one, thankfully, doesn’t need any travel (thank God!), but it’s another weekend of working and another list of things to organize and prepare for ahead of time.

As I’m doing all that, I’m also helping plan for New York Comic Con in mid-October, which involves managing the schedules and demands of somewhere in the region of nine or ten people, while also doing prep work for Emerald City Comic Con, which is in March of next year. Oh, and also doing my regular day-to-day writing and editing work, on top of that. (Well, less writing these days, but something had to give.)

None of this should be taken as a complaint; I’m very grateful for my job, and the challenges it brings are something that I know are good for me in the longterm even if they can feel overwhelming in the short. But I’m writing this to record that it is overwhelming in the short term, and that I can feel the burnout creeping in around the edges. I’m writing this to remind myself to take moments to breathe, and try to locate the now while I’m continually working in three or four different time periods at the same moment.

This one isn’t for you, dear reader, it’s for me, to hold myself accountable when I re-read this later.

Just Like Starting

Something unexpected happened at San Diego Comic-Con that I’ve been mulling over in the back of my head ever since: someone offered me a job, and it’s not a job in a field I’ve ever worked in before. No, I won’t say what it is, nor who offered it to me; I said no almost immediately, responding that I didn’t have the skill set — they disagreed — nor the experience required for the precise position they were offering, and I was at least entirely correct when it came to the experience part. However… I keep thinking about the fact that it was offered, and I immediately turned it down.

I don’t say that because I regret turning it down (I don’t), but because the more I think about it, the more I’m fascinated by the fact that I didn’t at least take longer to think about the possibility. If nothing else, to think about the possibility of doing anything so outside of my comfort zone. (And this very much would have been outside of my comfort zone.)

When I first moved to the US and got my Green Card, I remember meeting with a temp staffing agency purely because I needed money fast and I didn’t feel as if I had any particularly marketable skills. Sure, I’d gone to art school and taught in that same art school for a couple years after, but still: art school, you know? In the meeting, I was asked what kind of work I was looking for, and my reply was, for all intents and purposes, what have you got?

My thinking at the time was, no matter what is offered, I’ll either pick it up as I go along or not, and then I’ll move on to something else. Looking back, this feels supernaturally unlike the me I am now, who’d be daunted at the prospect of starting from scratch and seeing what could happen — but it worked out, even if much of that was due to the kindness and forgiveness of those around me at the time. (Something I have always strived to repay and pass on now that I’m in a more senior position myself.) Still: was I selling myself short by not responding to this new job offer with a do tell me more instead of a no, I’m not the guy, trust me?

I don’t know. Maybe? It’s not as if I’m in a business with any kind of long-term survival strategy, because my business doesn’t have any kind of long-term survival strategy, it becomes increasingly clear. Then again, it’s also not as if the industry I was being offered an entry point to was any more stable in the grand scheme of things. I chose to stay with the Devil I Know, and honestly, I’m glad I did. I actually kind of like this particular Devil, if I have to say it out loud.

And yet, my mind keeps wondering every now and then. And yet.

Many Years From Now There Will Be New Sensations

I’m glad that I hit the entirely arbitrary 150 mark on my 2025 playlist before the end of the month, so I can share what my particular “Songs of the Summer” have been before the season falls into the bin underneath our big cosmic desk. For those that might not remember, every year I make a Spotify playlist of songs that are either new to me or that I’ve become newly obsessed with if I had heard them before, and I share them here in batches of 50 songs at a time; here are the first two entries of this year’s list. (Why 50? There is no method to my madness.)

Want to know what much of my June, July and August sounded like? Take a look.